Changes

It intrigues me how something could be so profound, in a moment... and the next, "something" completely different. Elaborate? I shall. Re-reading: ~ my idea of self - awfully negative! ~ email about life - random, dramatic and misleading *blah blah blah* Our minds change so much with the bombardment of daily information. Personally, a new thought-string takes me to another realm; a shift in paradigm creates a view, more broad; slowing down to see the world through the eyes of my nephew opens me to discovery. I believe that it is possible to change - for every person to take responsibility and grow more. I desire to see the world find peace. I want to see relationships last in monogamy, till death interrupts. OH! to see an end to all that's wrong in this life. Unfortunately, we enjoy our comforts and fail to see "enough is enough".

Friends

There are friends and then there are Friends. We all have friends... people that we get along with; see them "often" enough. Hopefully, though, we're (each one) lucky enough to find Friends. These are those who irregardless of time, distance, age, stage or predicament - none of that matters. Their company brings understanding, ease and unhindered depths of conversation. Perhaps the distance and time freeze the other in our mind's eye and the reuniting awakens them to us. Much like a celebration of birthDays, christmasDay, civicDay - any DAY that's not with us week in, week out... special people are treats. These people are fantastic and catching up can take wonderful hours... oh! and reminiscing!!! Bringing us back to memories and shared joys or experiences. What BLISS! Yet, is it possible to experience this heightened sense each and every day? Or does the mundane prepare us for the extra-ordinary? I'd like to live on a plane of joy (deep seated, no matter what circumstance) that looks for the new. To express creatively, love. In the pursuit of learning different aspects of love, I appreciate, as appropriate, what another has to offer - looks, kindness, wisdom, passion (nice way of saying ANGER). People. I have to remain positive or I'd try to kill everyone (with my ideals)!

Standards

Is it possible for realistic expectations to be TOO high? I don't want a relationship, right now - I'm enjoying my freedom and independence. However, a date, now and then isn't a "bother". In a relationship, I know what I'm looking for... and for now, I enjoy the "prowl" - commitment, however, will quell this. As I get older, I begin to wonder - "what's wrong with me?" So, the first area to dissect, of course, is my expectations. Only one item (on my list) has changed. This list is a sum of ideal characteristics - it's understood that I reflect these traits... eventually. oh well... meanderings...

Time

Today is a new day... here. Compare: UK, it's afternoon; Australia, it's almost bedtime. So... is the dawning of a new day (season, riptide, etc) more a change within ourselves rather than a calendar? **ie. astrology, current division of days, religious festivals** One may hope to succeed in a "new year's resolution". However, a resolution could take place at any time, any week of the year! Change hinges on choice, after choice, after choice. I figure that everyone changes. Without conscious effort, most change for the worst. Whereas persistent dedication and relentless support... effect a change via self-awareness / enlightenment. So, a lifetime is a great time to exercise potential. Many attempt to inspire hope regarding our existence and how we can do SO much. Well, so much can be accomplished by the fulfillment of ourselves. Time is beyond us. We are not in control of our lives. One bigger than ourselves can stir us to better things. <*insert various arguments*> So often, I try to accomplish change, on my own. Even in practising religion... I still struggle to "grow". Granted the only thing that's helped me live in any level of human decency is a recognition of One who loves me. This love is evidenced in my relationships, in nature, even in pain. Grasping a hold of Love has changed my life, my outlook and my headspace. I was not created / invented / put here for myself. However, it is in and through love with my Creator that I love myself and out of that foundation... I "love" others (see the Golden Rule).