Woes of internet dating

There are some hotties out there! There are some genuinely nice guys ... however we wouldn't be a match made in heaven. Then, there are some really scary guys with tonnes of confidence. I avoid "old"er men because I don't want the baggage and bluntly - why are they still single? UNLESS it's the 40-yr old virgin, I'm simply not interested. I read a profile and translate with that de-coder thing... intuition and "what-does-THAT-mean". I'm sooooooooo drawn to quieter, intense, artsy folk. The looks vary dramatically. Security is a big turn on, too... honest about who they want, what they like, where they're flexible. anyhoo. I'm only mildly frustrated by the misleading profile photos... astounded at how angles, lighting and accessories can make someone look SOOOOO damn good! Just a little disappointment when I look backstage. RECENT pix, people... Recent!!! **oh well** such are the woes of internet dating ;o)

E-mail

I had very limited access to the internet whilst in Kelowna, BC. Work = over 200 emails to process / Personal = about the same number. Thankfully, a number of them are JUNK/disposable. There's popular and then Ridiculous!!! Unfortunately, with all the forwards and newsletters, there's not a lot of time to send out quality messages ;o( **note to self** organize and prioritize in order to "love" people better Thanks for the emails!

I'm loved!

Sent out a "short" questionnaire and received oodles of praise-worthy responses. EVERY single person made me laugh (at a memory or simply picturing their responses). I am so very lucky to be surrounded by fantastic people. It may seem like flattery... however, our friendships are a great reflection of ourselves! ~*~ Love in any other form? no... a continuing "crush", however. My friend describes him as: adorable in an eternally optimistic and earnest way; naturally intuitive and idealistic. She also learned something new - Naomi becomes a wallflower around lads she likes! ** horrible characteristic for first dates ** I read recently that one's amour should instill confidence... for me, it's stage fright! This person may potentially see ME. Girlfriends get there after some unconscious hurdles are conquered ;o) A man? = no more childish games... EEEEEEEEPPPPPPPP! I've watched relationships blossom - languished in the painful moments, rejoiced in the exuberant ones. I've also seen the transition of single to couple... leaving less room for "others". Some handle this graciously and others, well, not so graciously :o) **I am in no place to lose my elaborate support system - friend in need! Me, high maintenance? Just ask my brother (or his friends)! Watched, In Her Shoes, last night - wept the whole way through. Reminded of how much pain comes from a loved one. Bittersweet Joy. Are the depths reached worth the risk? It has to be or else, I'm surrounded by liars :o| This is my headspace, normally, not just due to a crush - that would make me psychotic!!! Experience is a valid teacher, right? I must get me sum o' dat!